Life Decisions

Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans. -John Lennon

We certainly had our share of lemons this past week. Doug's sister was hospitalized and was in a lot of pain for the majority of the week. Thankfully, she is on the mend and has been able to get up and around. We will all breathe a huge sigh of relief when she is able to come home.
On March 6, Doug and I went to the Dr. for a routine 12 weekish checkup. We found out that our little Sweet September had stopped growing. We had no inkling at all that anything had happened. On March 7, I went in and had a D and C. I have to say my favorite of all the discharge instructions they gave me was the one saying that I was not to "make any life decisions." I kinda carried that through the weekend. It was nice having a hiatus from "life decisions." To make a long story short, I know that I am not the only woman by a long shot to have gone through this. I have family members and friends who have walked this path. Somehow, that does not make it better or easier. We are VERY thankful for the blessings of our four children. We have talked about how difficult this would have been if it were our first and not our fifth. We know how lucky we are in the grand scheme of things. I do not understand, nor probably ever will what God wanted with my Sweet September before we could even get a chance to meet, but I suppose I have to learn to take it on faith. This has also been a huge learning experience in our marriage. Doug and I handle things VERY differently. It has caused some tense moments, but I also think it is a good thing that we our opposites emotionally because we bring each other to a middle ground and have learned from each other. We have been very well supported by friends and family as well.
It is a new week and I think I can tackle some life decisions again. I do not know if we will go down this path again. That remains an open-ended question between us and the Man Upstairs. As my friends Rascal Flatts would say, "I'm Moving On."